Erratum: Corrections in Life

It upsets me when people do not appreciate the things I do. I easily get discouraged. I feel weak and helpless. It's really an issue when a lot of us expects something and in reality it is the opposite. I have done a lot of failures in my life, but it ended to be a beautiful part of my life right now. I did not regret anything. All I wanted today is to live life to the fullest and always be affirmative in everything that I do. Wondering why I said those things.. Here's my story.......

In 2008, life or me was a bit cold and and bitter. I am pessimistic in all things: in life, work, love and etc. I do not think about myself anymore, I became a slave in my own right.. A slave in the workplace. I am surrounded by deadlines, out of this world demands (from bosses), lying and unrealistic views. My life was totally a mess.. My parents keep saying that I should quit the job and find another one, if Im not happy with it. But I was stuck with this contract. That is the reason why I cannot resign yet. 

My boyfriend, was always there for me. He was my shelter in despair and hardships that Ive experienced. He was my shoulder that I could cry on. Our relationship was very serious and got intimate. Intimate... that we explored in having sex outside marriage. Days have passed, and we enjoyed the passion in love making. I realized that I am doing something is a sin. I lied to my parents that I have overtime that's why I go home late everyday, even on Sundays I have overtime, when in fact we're dating. These are the moments of my life that I was so damn in love and totally out of this world.. I even lied to my parents...

One day at work, I was task to bring the LCD projector in a hotel where we are having a meeting. It was raining. My office mates, three of us, are in the taxi and all of us are in the backseat. We were bumping each other because there was no space.

In the hotel, we have drop all of our things and check on the items.. thinking that we brought everything..... Inside the function room, I have realized that the LCD Projector was left on the taxi.. (huhuhuhu). And I was so damn nervous and I couldn't think straight. Days passed and the projector was no where to be found. Even if we told cops about it and even announce it on TV and Radio, still no responses.

These times were also the times that I so bothered that I did not have my menstruation on that month. I was pressured to know if I was pregnant.... One day, there was a bleeding on my panty.. But it was a shower of blood. Small droplets of blood. It was not a normal menstruation, because in another day, it stopped.

I was worried and frantic about it. So I took a pregnancy test and BOOM! It was positive... It was a freezing moment for me.. I want to be stuck in that time and forget about the future. But I have to move on, and faced this dilemma. My boyfriend went to my mom and dad. We discuss what happened. I was so nervous that my dad will be angry at my boyfriend. We cried together and don't know what to do...

When my father knew about the situation, he even smiled and accepted the situation. He asked my boyfriend to bring his parents and make an arrangement of our wedding. Wedding... The things were rushing.. The plans were a whirlwind.. But we ended up together... And I gave birth to a beautiful daughter...

Hallejuhah! It was a miracle of life. That I gave birth to my daughter..Now, the past was buried. It's time for me to move on and think about my loved ones first and God as the center of our lives. My Husband and I never regret about the things that we have done. But we would straighten up things and live in righteousness.. Thats what I want my daughter to be.. Life has to move on.. We should not be stuck in the past.. Past are just lessons in life, these are our basis to build a new future of righteousness. I was not wise in things. But I was a great fighter in facing these challenges. I would not trade my family for money or wealth. They are my priceless treasure and blessing from God. A gift that I will cherish forever..

"The saddest failures in life are those that come from not putting forth the power and will to succeed." - E.P. Whipple